Crumbled Note Goes in the Trash

When I couldn't speak I was shaking
I FEEL BETTER SAYING WHAT IT IS
This new regime looks like more of the same
I'VE SAID MY PIECE AND I'M SINKING

You only had focus in your eyes 
when you were drinking and rolling dice 
There are disorders without a fix
HAVE YOU ALWAYS CRUSHED LIKE THIS 
Already halfway home and it's not even six 

My life is a lie
These problems I've created
can't survive the light of my thoughts
GET YOUR ASS TO BED
First let me hear what he said, she said 

These are big shoes to fill
My feet, your feet, we need
a thousand feet still 

Mad at my destiny so
I'm writing all curse words
Expressing my aggression 
in high cursive through 
schizophrenic verse words 

I can't live my life in decline
with a bunch of crabs in a bucket
When you see the lake
you see the hippo
Wake me with a shake
before you go